Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Improving onesself is hard...

Improving oneself is very hard... specialy if there are obstraction along the way.
People who dont belive you is one thing.

I am a mother of three and has struggled since the birht of my first child. I wasn't able to prove that I am capable of taking care of my children since I gave birth in a young age.

I got pregnant when I was 18 years old. At first my mother suggested that she will adopt mychild so I could still live a single life. Well... since I was so in love with my boyfriend. I pursuade my parent for us to be together even if we don't tie th knotch. We were lining in together for almost two years.. A bumpy relationship I may say... Until I got pregnant with my second child, It's was hard for me coz my mom got mad and told me that It's time for us to decide for the sake of our children. So we got married... Maybe you are thinking by that time we lived happily ever after..... that was a BIG NO NO... He still depended on her mom ans I was making my own money and my parents helped me raising up my two kids. I even studied in the province and my kids were with me.

I am not selfish so still I let my in laws give suggestion if it good then why not. They decided to get my eldest for her to study in the City. Huh... little that I know it was the start of something I should have not done a long time ago. I never had agreed on that deal.

Right now they thought they had all the rights to my daughters. Thinking that they are helping me. Now way, they are not helping coz we are not learning responsibility in any sense. My husband thinks that It was always ok for her mother to get my kids without pernission from me. Well I am really starting to build up hate. I hope this will still be fixed.

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Now, we open up....

An ordinary day, with a routine... something happened.
Suprise!!! that's the time you'll find out that upredictable events might happen just in front of you.
Hmmm... We often think that there is a natural flow of life... and when we say natural...
aha here comes some suprises... you might be trapped in a traffic...
or you got a fight with someone close to you in your very special day...
boohoo... you were struck by bad luck and you did not plan for those things to happen...
That's what I call Life's real natural flow.

Sometime it is out of hand. No one can control it.
A lot of scientists are being paid getting answers from the questions of Life.
Just like rain some parts of it we can explain and has anwers.
But most of it... Mysterious... Unpridictable... Unexplainable...

Just like the way the rain pours we don't how it will flow.Is it just rainshower or a stormy one.

Inspiring me to do this Blog are people who want to share there feelings thoughts and ideas of just how they feel and what wwent right or wrong in their life. I hope that these individuals are brave enough to show us what they really feel and say the true flow of life.

RAINE